received a stupid call from cs recently. he was out together with raj, and most probably peck also. he called to say raj dunno our birthdays. so what right? i dun care now. they are just one very small part of my life now. maybe not even the small part in the near future. even for cs, tell people things that he wasn't supposed to and act like he did nothing wrong. well, he didn't know i found out. after that before hanging up, he told me to find him go out one of these days. funny hur? alright, sometimes i just have to play along with everybody.

lucky still got wei jian. if not, i would have just said brothers are all fake. at least i know he will be there to render help when i'm in trouble and wont forget me. raj got fed up with me when i ask him more questions. maybe i'm really stupid or dependent. well, you should have known that ever since you know me, right?

life is sort of mess up now. frens i treasure are drifting away. frens whom i dun really treat as frens asking me to go out. the want to fight is diminishing. its either i lead a peaceful life, or if i have to fight, i wanna be one of the best.

should have went to wei jian's house yesterday to celerate his sister's birthday de. weather was really too bad. very difficult for me to go down from my training place there. sian. must have missed alot of fun and good food. haha.