tired...

have been lacking of sleep recently. sleep around 3-5 hours everyday? gosh. dying la. spending most of my time in cs's father's funeral recently. time passed fast with jody, peck joo, raj that group. cs is a strong guy and the man of his family now. hope he'll stay strong and do me this brother proud yeah?

had been thinking:cs has frens when something happened to him. how will the situation be like when i am in his shoe instead? i dun have many frens. but i think its not really on the quantity but the quality. why find those frens when you know they aren't really true to you? i rather spend more time with my true frens.

dunno why think so much. but i'm also afraid of death. alot of my dreams not fulfiled yet. trying hard, but there'll always be obstacles along the way. haix. if one day whereby i really die (choy!), how'd my funeral be like? frankly speaking, i'm not those noble people who will say "oh, i wan people to put on a smile in my funeral". i actually wanna see who are the people who will actually cry for me. only then can i see who are the ones who really treasure me as a brother, fren etc.

think im getting a bit too lengthy le. really like blogging nowadays. im bo liao. haha. ciaoz