exploding

life is so damn unhappy. everything is not going smoothly for me. many people will think its regarding studies (cos its so expected). but lets put that aside. things like friendship, my looks, my timesheet and my martial arts are also soooo fuck up now.

going by the order i put just now. firstly, friendship. sometimes when i pretend i dunno something, i actually know. its just that i dun wanna show it cos the situation may get more tensed up or anything. sick and tired of these le.

my looks! i din go out these few days in spite of the fact its weekend cos i think i look hideous. you just avoid going out as much as possible while you look like a monster. right?

and then, this bastard johnnie from the job agency asked me for my previous timesheet. i just can't find it! its just around one hundred dollars! cant you just give it?!? some more even if i find it i have to go all the way to clementi to stamp that timesheet. i hope he get knock by cars and lorries. add on to my problems.

lastly, martial arts. being in a chinese martial arts school, many things are being regarded as "secrets" that wont be passed around easily. fed up with all the politics and the situation im in. i have around 5 masters that im learning from currently. cos i wanna learn more, this became a problem as the people from hua tiong view me as a student from northern combat also. hard for me to learn more things.

ram, so what you've practised martial arts for more than 30 years and have shadowless kick? i will beat you one day.